i love you, do you love me too?

yeah i love you, you dont love me too.

say you miss me, try to kiss me,

but you really dont miss me, youll never kiss me again...

so you win, we wont start over

yeah you win, i feel your cold shoulder

i guess youll never make me smile...

and i guess i just wont talk for a while.

i miss how we both used to be

but people change, what can i say?

oh darling, i am sorry for the hurt i might be causing you.

forgive me...

i dont know, how to show you im sorry.

can you ever forgive me?

i want us how were supposed to be.

baby, i am seriously...

going crazy without you with me.

so you win.

i dont know...

i want to get out of this hole.
me and dreamboy are now only friends.
but thats good enough, i guess.
fkldsjgkldsf.
i still have this sense of hope that we could work out.
but then again, im hopeful about everything.
im the most disturbed, sad, sick optimist ive ever met.
i tell myself that all will be well, and it usually goes nicely.
but with crazy, painful consequences

BUT no one cares so it doesnt matter.
i give up on the human race.
i have absolutely no faith in humanity because in the end, its every man for themselves.
promises get broken.

xoxo
soooooup.

down to business?

now, time for a real post?
im gonna cry about my life for a second, and maybe you can sympathize or give advice.

so.
this is how its going at the moment.
boyfriend, who i loved but didn't realize how much, broke it off tuesday. then, because the world hates me and likes ruining nice things, helped him find out about me and some dude. me and this dude happened like, four seconds after he asked me out FOUR MONTHS ago. he killed me with his words afterschool thursday. i hadnt cried that hard since my grandpa died...but. jesus christ, fsdkljglkdjglsd.
now, we're just friends for the time being.
and it hurts me so bad to be around him and still in love with him. when he just wants to be friends.
last night, we chatted on the phone. all was well, until he told me aboout this chick he finds attractive. i felt like id been stabbed in the chest when he talked about a relationship with someone who wasnt me. i feel selfish, but i dont want him to be with anyone until he absolutely doesnt want me anymore.
cause i mean, i dont want anyone else but him at this point.
i dont know what to do!

kill me pleeeeeeeeeeease.
-xxmason.

Welcome home.

I don't know why I was inspired to create a blog.
i feel like i need a better outlet for the world.
and a place to say the things i get excited about when no one listens.

eitherway.
welcome to my blog. i really hate the word 'blog'.
-xo mason.